no crazy please

after watching "he loves me; he loves me not", i can easily say... crazy is no good. period. to that level of stalking and ruining a dude's life must be a total nightmare. being introduced to this movie through hanna and donna, it got me thinking of all the crazies that i know or have encountered in my college life. better yet, got me thinking of how much of a turn-off "crazy" is to me and the amount of effort i put into... "casually avoiding" them. won't lie, i think i can easily come up with names that i can count up to with one hand. craziness is definitely a big turn off. even the smallest, remote sign of it. i know there's people saying everybody has some kind of craziness in them. as one infamous question states, what if she was hot, even though she's crazy? in comparison to her hotness, how much craziness would it be okay to go out with her? introduced by "how i met your mother", there's the hot-crazy scale explained by barney:

i dunno, but for me, i wouldn't even want to be in a relationship with an extremely hot girl with a little bit of crazy. who knows when that little bit of crazy would literally bite you in the ass. it's like a living ticking time bomb. a classic example, no matter how hot angelina jolie is, she's still no good; she's crazy. who the heck kisses their sibling like that and who wears a vial of blood of their significant other around their neck? what the hell was brad pitt thinking? according to that hot-crazy scale, she fails... but back to the main point, personally, i think common issue that arises is defining what "crazy" is. i think the solution to resolve this epidemic is to determine whether her specific characteristic/traits are idiosyncratic or crazy. people misunderstands and confuses the two together, generalizing them into the category "crazy", failing to see the fine silver-lining that divides between the two. everybody has their own idiosyncrasies or weird habits. it's typically what makes everybody human and unique, thus creating the attraction. but crazy is a different story.

ugh... just thinking about crazies just gives me a slight headache. seeing how it's senior year as an undergrad, i can already foresee the panic and scramble amongst my fellow seniors. oh the infamous "senior scramble"... with that played into affect, i can put my money on people hooking up with a lot of crazies out of desperation. this shall be an interesting show to see this year.

as for me, looking for a relationship is not my biggest concern and priority. i've got a bigger fish to fry; that's graduating and finding a job to "get money get paid". the remainder of my summer is dwindling; i shall resign from the keyboard and relax before the onslaught of school starts.

the waiting game

hi. my name is eric and i'm a... mac.

hahah i guess i finally made the switch. i would have to say, i'm pretty pleased with my new machine. as of now i'm waiting to get my hands on a couple of software such as adobe creative suite cs4 and microsoft office. from there on out, i should be pretty much set for the things that i need for this thing.

it seems to me at this point of the summer, i'm playing the waiting game. i'm waiting for the softwares for my mac. i'm waiting for the callback or the email notification from the interview for the layout intern. i'm waiting to start new art projects. i'm waiting to start learning the guitar. I'm waiting to drive back up north. i'm waiting for the new school year to start. i'm waiting... i'm waiting... i'm waiting...

but it's not like i just let my time dwindle away. i've kept myself occupied... soo i've finally got busy working on my portfolio website that was supposedly "started" since may. it's going pretty slow, but thorough. been looking through tutorial websites and sample websites to get some inspirations. hopefully, i'll be finished working on this template by this weekend. hopefully, i'll put this website up by the end of this month. which reminds me, need to register the domain name and get a hosting server.

like playing with dominos, i've setted up all the necessary pieces for the rest of my summer through this waiting game. now, it just needs to start with a simple push onto one piece to get the whole thing moving. i've already pictured out the outline of the "outcome" of this waiting game that i'm playing, but it'll be something to enjoy and see it all completed once it is finished.

A Splurge into Simplicity

My summer has finally started. No more summer session classes. No more free-writes. No more artist statements. No more math homework. No more studying. No more multi-variable calculus. Nada. Summer has finally kicked into gear, and what great way to kick it off by relaxing in Vegas. Interesting enough, my summer session began with Vegas and simply ends with Vegas. Although, I wish my "winnings" would end the same way that I ended on my first trip (oh wells). It seems everything is perfectly balanced now...

With no summer school anymore, it's hard for me to change my thinking from "what I need to do" to "what I want to do". With so many ideas and plans that I want to do, I don't even know where to begin. One thing's for sure... what the hell happened to working on my portfolio website? I guess that's an item to start with for my summer. Hopefully I'll finish and post it up by the end of this month, but ideally up by end of the 2nd week of this month.

Aside from working on my website and pursuit of an internship and part-time job, I want to take this summer into simplicity. In essence, to relive it as a kid that I used to be. To relive those moments of just waking up and enjoy the atmosphere of summer. Just keeping things simple. Work on one thing at a time. Not so much worrying about what needs to be done or future events. To simply just work on art, chill out, indulge in music, refresh myself with delicious edibles. And most important of all after my recent awakening about Grace within me, to thoroughly relax and enjoy Jesus Christ. Life seems to slow down in the summer, and there's no greater opportunity than to savor it with Him. With exodus3's VBS approaching, I definitely want to see Grace work itself within me and upon the little kids.

Overall, I definitely want my last summer as an undergrad student to dive into simplicity and into sheer enjoyment.